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Mafia Life.

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NEW  TAG  DROP  PART  2 !!  ( bc i hate myself.  )

steph. 

^{shit.   slip of the tongue,   he might kill her,   but she   GRINS.   girl talk, right?   “   he’s a pouter,   but i think it’s a gecko thing to be pretty   murderous   at all times.   it’s not even the whole lifestyle thing ‘cause it’s just their faces, like the whole   resting bitch face   thing.   ”   she  snorts.   “   GOOD PLAN.   maybe next time they won’t think smoking their stupid cigars is more important than feeding their starving women.   plus, a girls night will be fun.   i feel like we haven’t   GOSSIPED   in forever.   ”}

                       _{❝  ———   glad   i’m   not   the   only   one   who   picked   up   on   their   resting   bitch   faces.   seriously.   seth’s   is   impressive.   PUTS   MINE   TO   SHAME.  ❞      she  laughs ,   shaking  her  head.  there  isn’t  a  day  where  she  isn’t   COMPLETELY   THANKFUL   for  steph.  she  couldn’t  imagine  richie  with  anyone  else.  even  if  she  still  swears  steph  is   TOO   GOOD   for  him.      ❝  WE   HAVEN’T.   the   boys   are   always   gettin’   in   the   way ,   keeping   us   apart.   i   think   they’re   scared.   they   know   we’re   dangerous   together.   could   probably   TAKE   OVER   their   whole   operation   if   we   wanted.  ❞}

d i c k.

              ^{❛  i..  did see her, yeah.  ❜  was he going to TELL her where  &  what was said?  not a chance in hell.  if kate was this angry by her presence here, it was best for richie to go against everything that he was  &  actually keep his mouth shut for once.  he’d said enough to earn himself TWO beatings for seth  &  while he wasn’t afraid of his brother, he knew the man was dirty enough to bring some brass knuckles or a knife or two just to get his revenge  &  the last thing richie needed was steph getting involved in all this.. CRAZY.  ❛  —— look, don’t even worry about her, kate.  yeah, i know, easier said than done, but if you know seth loves you so much why would you even get yourself worked up about it?  don’t let one bad apple SPOIL the whole tree, or whatever the fuckin’ sayin’ is.  i’ll make sure that she stays in her lane until she’s ready to leave.  ❜}

                       _{❝  NO.   fuck   that !  ❞      if  one  more  gecko  boy  had  the  nerve  to  tell  her  not  to  worry ,   she  was  going  to  snap.   OFFICIALLY   LOSE   IT ,   and  they  were  both  going  to  regret  opening  their  mouths.  she  was  pissed ,   beyond  pissed.  and  as  much  as  she  wanted  to  listen  to  them ,   to  listen  to  the   SMALL   VOICE   that  told  her  she  was  being  irrational  ——  she  couldn’t  do  it.  anger  settled  in  her  frame ,   and  as  tiny  as  she  might  have  been ,   her  anger  could  move  mountains.      ❝  lemme   put   it   into   terms   you’ll   understand.   same   way   i   did   for   seth ;   how   would   YOU   FEEL   if   one   of   steph’s   exes   suddenly   walked   back   into   her   life ?   and   instead   of   telling   him   to   FUCK   OFF ,   she   welcomed   him   back..   with   damn   near   open   arms ?   oh !   and   if   that   wasn’t   enough ,   this   was   an   ex   you   knew   NOTHING   ABOUT ,   even   when   you   thought   you   guys   told   each   other   everything.   all   you   knew   was   that   this   ex   was   STUNNING   and   happened   to   be   the   one   that   left   the   LOVE   OF   YOUR   LIFE   in   fucking   ruins.   because   that…   that   is   what   i’m   going   through.   so   don’t   tell   me   not   to   fucking   worry   about   her   when   all   i   wanna   do   is   BEAT   HER   ASS   INTO   NEXT   WEEKEND.  ❞}

richie. ❜

               ^{——  &  there it was.  he’d KNOWN kate long enough to know what would set her off, but he would’ve done way more damaged by not telling her anything at all or hitting her with a ‘maybe you should talk to seth about that’ bullshit answer.  either way, she was pissed  &  he was already having visions of his brother coming to him, gun in hand, for even saying ANYTHING in the first place.  ❛  kate, look.  you know i’ve never been good at bullshittin’ answers for any reason, but you shouldn’t worry about an old goddamn fling.  he MARRIED you for a reason  &  it wasn’t cause of your sparklin’ personality, trust me.  i grew up with the man  &  i ain’t ever seen him love the way he loves you.  that’s all you should be focused on, not letting your hair turn GREY over some old ass flame.  ❜} 

                       _{❝  you   seen   her ?  ❞      DUMB   QUESTION.   of  course  he’d  seen  her.  and  god ,   she  hated  herself  for  thinking  so  much  about  the  other  woman.  this  wasn’t  her.  being  reduced  to  this  screaming ,   insecure  little  girl  ——   THAT   WAS   NOT   KATE   FULLER.      ❝  i   know   he   loves   me ,   i’m   not..   i’m   not   an   idiot.   but   i   also   know   how   girls   like   that   work.   y-you   don’t   just   walk   back   into   your   ex’s   life   without   wantin’   something.  ❞      it  was  a  leap.   A   HUGE   LEAP.   she  knew  nothing  about  this  woman  other  than  an  old  picture   &   a name.  and  now  the  knowledge  that  they  had  been  through  a  lot  together.      ❝  next   thing   you   know   she’s   gonna   have   her   dirty   little   hands   all   over   him.   a-and…  ❞      and  she  didn’t  know.   SHE   TRUSTED   SETH.   marriage  was  no  joke.  and  they’d  had  that  conversation  plenty  of  times.  but  the  thought  of  another  woman  touching  her  husband ,   even  when  he  didn’t  reciprocate…  it  made  her  blood  boil.}

whatever our souls are made of, his & mine are the same.

                    ^{his  lips  curled  into  the   PUREST   smile,  one  that  she’s  never  seen  before.  it  was  as  if  his  heart  skipped  multiple  beats,  never   once   returning  to  its  normal  rhythm.  it  was  nearly   IMPOSSIBLE   from  the  moment  he  heard  voice  to  the  seconds  where  she  returned  her   love   for  him  against  his  lips.  it  was  heavenly.  this  was  love.  as  fucked  as  they  both  were,  they  completed  one  another  and  they  both  knew  it.  he  felt  it  in  his  heart   (   as  dark   &   cold  as  it  could  be   )   and  his  soul.  his  hands  rested  comfortably  against  her  cheeks  while  his  nose  touched  hers.  his  touch  as  soft  as  could  be.  he  held  her  as  if  she  were   GLASS,   precious   &   fragile.  but  she  was  his.  and  it  showed  with  his  touch;  firm  yet  possessive  but  never  suffocating.    ❛   you  better  not  be  bullshittin’  me,   ❜   he  teased  lightly,  his  eyes  still  closed  when  he  spoke  against  her  lips.  fighting  the  urge  to  devour  her  with   PASSIONATE  KISSES.} 

                       _{this  was  a  moment  she  wanted  to  live  in ,   FOREVER.   the  arguments  faded.  the  anger  died  off.  for  this   BRIEF   CLIP   IN   TIME ,   there  was  nothing  but  love   &   honesty  flowing  between  them.  and  sure ,   it  scared  her.  love  wasn’t  supposed  to  exist.  it  was  a  fantasy  for  children ;   something  to  give  them  comfort  on  the  lonely  nights.  but  god.  seth  made  her  want  to  believe  it  was  real.  he  made  her   CRAVE   IT.   to  be  held  by  him ,   loved  by  him ;   she  didn’t  think  she  would  ever  need  anything  else.  another  absolutely  terrifying  thought  for  the  girl  who  had  worked   SO   HARD   to  get  to  where  she  was.      ❝  never.   ———   i   love   you ,   i   love   you ,   i   love   you.  ❞      each  confession  was  separated  by  her  lips  pressing  to  his.  her  heart  felt  like  it  was  going  to   BREAK   THROUGH   her  ribs.  it  pounded  so   FAST   and  so   HARD   against  her  bones.  and  she  didn’t  care.  she  curled  her  body  impossibly  closer  to  him ,   chest  to  chest   &   on  the  tips  of  her  toes.  her  nose  bumped  against  the  bottom  of  his  just  before  her  lips  claimed  his  once  more ,   rougher  and  deeper  than  before.  she  wanted  to  let  him  feel   EVERYTHING ,   every  emotion  pouring  into  his  lips ;   love ,   fear ,   serenity.}

and then i saw you & my soul kind of went ‘oh there you are. i’ve been looking for you.’

                    ^{THAT’S   ALL   HE   WANTED   TO   HEAR   &   she  gave  it  to  him,  not  once  but  twice.  and  that’s  how  he  knew  she  was  his  again.  if  it  were  anyone  else,  he  would’ve  walked  away  as  if  she  never  mattered   ——  as  if  she  were  nothing  more  than  a  fuck;  a  ONE  NIGHT  STAND  gone  wrong.  but  she  was  more  than  that.  she  was  worth  so  much  more  than  what  he  usually  gave  to  his  past  women.   it  never  mattered  how  much  they  argued  and  got  under  each  other’s  skin,  she  had  a   HOLD   on  him   &   fuck,  did  he  love  it.  he  loved  it  more  than  anything.   ❛   we  always  come  back  because  only  we  can  understand  these  fucked  up  brains  we  got,   ❜   &   it  was  the   TRUTH.   both  were  incredibly  insane  messes;  both  stubborn,  HOT  TEMPERED   and   HOPELESSLY   in  love  with  one  another.   ❛   you  got  me  and  i’ve  got  you,  alright   ?   i’m  not  going  anywhere,  hey   —   look  at  me,   ❜   lifting  her  face  until  their  eyes  met.  green  meeting  hazel.  and  for  fucks  sake,  he  felt  his  heart  skip  a  beat  for  a  moment  or  two.    ❛   you  hear  me  ?   i’m  not  leavin’.  I LOVE YOU !  ❜}

                       _{his  words  made  her   HEART   STOP.   it  felt  like  dead  weight  in  her  chest  as  a  chill  spread  throughout  her ;   starting  in  her  ribcage  before  traveling  down  the  length  of  her  spine.  it  wasn’t  that  she  didn’t  know  how  he  felt  —  how  she  felt  in  return  —  it  radiated  through  everything  they  did.  each  fight ,   every  break  up   &   make  up ,   everything  down  to  their   P E T T Y   attempts  to  make  the  other  jealous.  love  was  stitched  into  the  fabric  of  their  relationship ,   obvious  to  everyone  around  them.  but  hearing  him   SAY   THOSE   WORDS   was  another  thing  entirely.      ❝  what…   what   did   you   just   say ?  ❞      it  was  like  everything  around  her  stopped.  arms  circled  around  his  neck ,   and  she  used  his  shoulders  as  leverage  to  pull  herself  onto  the  tips  of  her  toes.   SAY   SOMETHING ,   SAY   SOMETHING.  but  she  couldn’t  get  the  words  out.  not  yet.  instead  lips   CRASHED   against  his.  it  was  different.  there  was  no  rush  behind  her  kiss.  the  normal   HUNGER   replaced  by  pure   PASSION   she  hadn’t  even  known  was  possible.  it  rolled  off  her  in  waves ,   and  left  her  almost  trembling.  only  when  her  lungs   BURNED   &   BEGGED   for  air  was  she  able  to  pull  back.  the  act  pulled  a  pathetic  whimper  from  the  back  of  her  throat ,   as  eyes  locked  back  onto  his.      ❝  ——— I LOVE YOU TOO.  ❞}

i never wanted a prince until i met him. ❜

                    ^{it  didn’t  matter  how  many  times  she  told  him  that,  he  knew  the  fucker  didn’t  see  it  in  that  kind  of  light.  he  remembered  the  look  in  the  guy’s  eyes  when  she  was  talking.  the  memory  alone  made  his  skin  crawl   &   for  the  love  of  god,  he  wished  he  knocked  the  fucker’s  teeth  out.   ❛   he  didn’t   SEE   it  in  that  way.  i  don’t  know  how  many  times  i’ve  gotta  tell  you  that.  he  wanted  you  ——  that’s  why  i  took  it  upon  myself  to  get  in  the  fucker’s  face   &   you  just  ..  poured  more  fuel  to  the  flame.   ❜   he  never  understood  how  they  both  managed  to  get  each  other   JEALOUS   and  still  feel  this  need  for  one  another.  whether  it  be  emotionally  or  physically,  she  needed  him  as  he  needed  her.  fingers  reached  for  her  face  as  he  cradled  her  face  while  he  spoke.   ❛   listen,  hey  —  hey,  you’re  not  gonna  lose  me,  alright   ?   we’re  gonna  fight  through  this.  TOGETHER.  okay   ?   ❜}  

             _{she  had  never  cared  for  a  man  to  step  in  and  claim  her  as  his  woman.  she’d  knocked  out  more  than  a  dozen  ex  boyfriends  for  even  trying.  but  when  seth  stepped  in ,   when  his   JEALOUSY   raged ,  her  toes  curled.  as  wrong  as  it  might  have  been ,   the   MEMORY   ALONE   stirred  something  within  her.  and  god ,   she  had  never  wanted  him  more  than  in  that  moment.   ❝   how   many   times   do   i   gotta   tell   you ,   i   never   wanted   him !   i   wanted   you.   i..   it’s   always   been   you ,   asshole.   ❞   from  heat  spreading  through  her  stomach ,   to  her  heart  slamming  in  fear  into  her  rib  cage ;   how  did  he  do  that  to  her ?   how  did  he  reduce  her  to  such  a  vulnerable  mess  within  a  matter  of  seconds ?   how  did  he  make  her  feel   SO   MUCH ?   her  fingers  clawed  more  desperately  at  his  shirt.  she  pulled  her  body  closer  to  him ,   and  allowed  her  head  to  turn  in  his  grip ,   lips  brushing  against  the  inside  of  his  palm.   ❝   i   know   we   will.   i-i   know   that   this…   it’s   just   another   fight.   because   we   always   come   back.   this..   this   is   real.   ❞}  

he’s the only one who’s ever made me want to stay.

                    ^{❛  and  you’re  innocent  ?  what  happened  with  that  johnny  bravo  lookin’  motherfucker  you  were  with  the   LAST   time  i  saw  you  at  the  bar,  huh  ?  you  weren’t  tryin’  to  make  me   JEALOUS   with  that  ugly  asshole  ?   we  both  fucked  up.  and  i  admit  that  i  did.  i  take  responsibility  for  it,  alright  ?   ❜   he  took  a  few  steps  towards  her,  closing  the  gap  between  them.  ❛  and  you  think  i’ve  done  this  shit  before  ?   we’re  both  on  the  same  boat.  just  ——  try.  for  fuck’s  sake,  kate  ..  try,  not  just  for  me  but  for  us.  ❜}

          _{❝   i   was   talkin’   to   him   about   A   JOB.   you’re   the   one   that   took   it   outta   context.   and…   i   just   went   with   it   because   you   were   already   pissed   off.   come   on ,   you   know   i’ve   got   better   taste   than   that.   ❞  and  despite  her  best  efforts ,   she  found  herself  reaching  out  for  him.  fingers  practically  clinging  to  the  fabric  of  his  shirt.   ❝   i   swear…   i’m   tryin’.   i   know   it   doesn’t   look   like   it ,   and   i   fuck   up.   a   lot ,   ok ?   i   get   it.   and   i’m   sorry.   but   i   am   tryin’ ,   seth.   i..   i   don’t   wanna   lose   this.   whatever   it   is.   ❞}   

             _{a  sigh  works  through  her  lips.  she  wants  to  be   FULL  ON  DRAMATIC ;   lay  her  head  against  the  table  top ,   scream  into  the  still  air  that  surrounds  them ,   and  make  everyone  in  the  restaurant  question  her  sanity.  her  sanity.  ha.  that’s  definitely  slipping  through  her  fingers.  and  she  hates  this  mysterious  ex  for  getting   SO  FAR   under  her  skin.   ❝   i   don’t   know ,   ❞   she  half  mumbles  as  the  glass  of  wine  is  lifted  to  her  lips.  but  there  is  no  wasting  her  time  with  a  small  sip.  instead  the  glass  is  emptied  in  one  gulp  and  seconds  later ,   she  is  motioning  for  the  waiter  to  bring  over  another  bottle.   ❝   ’bout   a   year   or   so   before   i   met   him ,   i   think ?   he   doesn’t   really   talk   about   it.   but..   richie   said   they   went   through   a   lot   together.   ❞   // meme.} 

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& acciofist & ✞ ┊❛ preαcнer’ѕ dαυɢнтer ѕтrιĸeѕ αɢαιɴ. ❪ inquires. ❫ & ✞ ┊❛ lιғe ιѕ αweѕoмe ι coɴғeѕѕ. wнαт ι do ι do вeѕт. ❪ verse. mafia au. ❫