do we pretend these feelings don’t exist at all, or do we fall?
let her go. just let her go.
words of doubt SCREAMED within the dark abyss of his mind but he was too weak to let go. her words held him captive. he was a skeptical to her words. something like a non believer of GOD finding light at the end of the tunnel, just to find her at the end, waiting for him; bloody & smiling. as much as he wanted to push her away & never look back, he cared. he cared for her as much as he did for richie ( even if he didn’t want to admit it in front of her ). if he never cared for her , she would’ve never had the upper hand in this situation. leaving him to believe for a split second that they were better TOGETHER as she said back at the temple. but now they were here — in the middle of a dirt road, confessing feelings ( from her at least ) & falling victim to her lips locking with his regardless of how sickening his mind was, full of doubt.
but he didn’t pull away because he needed her. he needed her to silence the voices in his mind. & dammit, he needed her to save him from himself. & for a moment, he allowed that to flow out of him through his lips. pressing them against hers, DESPERATELY. and he knew there was no turning back; every fear he ever had melted away from his trembling hands only to be replaced with a sliver of CONFIDENCE as he deepened their kiss of unspoken words. his hand slid off of her cheek, catching the feeling of her own following his until warm tips wrapped around her neck. he needed her closer until they were as close as two damagedSOULS could be. not until they were combined as one. in unison.
prayers that should have rested silent on her tongue still screamed up to the sky above them. a thank you to god that ,FOR ONCE , he wasn’t running away from her. she’d been expecting it. as calm as the air might have seemed between them… this had to be the calm before the storm, right ? that was how they worked. she tried to break through to him; help him see that there was still GOOD IN HIS HEART. the good he was always so set on ignoring. and he continued to do everything in his power to send her running when all she wanted was to STAY BY HIS SIDE. but his fingers against her neck made her jump. it set fire to her skin and pulled her even closer to him ,hovering on the edge of her seat. every second that ticked by , she found herself DROWNING IN HIM.
the confined space of the car wasn’t exactly comfortable, but the LAST THING she was going to do was complain. instead her fingers found the fabric of his shirt , balling into small fists as she returned his desire to close more the space between them. kissing him had never been in her plan. it had been SO FAR FROM THE PLAN, she hadn’t even known it was an option. but somehow his lips moving with hers felt like home. and she never wanted it to end. hesitant actions followed his lead ; trying to deepen the kiss and test the waters. but when she felt like her lungs were ready to CAVE IN & COLLAPSE from lack of air , she pulled her lips away. her forehead rested with his as she panted softly , unaware that ONE KISS leave her so breathless (and almost lightheaded). the INEXPERIENCED PART of her brain kicked in , asking her to be the one to fill the space with words and end the silence. but she couldn’t. she didn’t know what to say without RUINING THE MOMENT. @guapogecko
It should go without saying but, I am in no way affiliated with From Dusk Till Dawn, the El Rey Network, or Madison Davenport. I do not own the character of Kate Fuller. The only thing I claim ownership of is the writing that is done on this blog. That is mine, along with any head canons that may be posted. I ask that you do not steal them. Most of the icons used on this blog were made by me ( with the exception of the ones i’ve downloaded from THIS PACK ). I ask that you do not save icons from this blog. Mine are not for public use. And if you wish to use the ones I’ve downloaded, you should go to the source!
selectivity.
This is an highly selective blog. This means I am mutuals only and I will be selective on who I follow back. Memes are the only exception to this rule. Non-mutals are welcome to send in memes, unless stated otherwise in the tags. Or, if you have a specific plot in mind, you are always welcome to message me. I don't bite! And we can talk about it. However, please keep in mind that I reserve the right to turn down any and all plots, for whatever reason.
following & unfollowing.
There are a wide variety of reasons I do not follow people back. This is not a reflection of you or how you portray your muse. This is not me saying you aren't 'good enough' to write with me. Or I think myself better than you. This is simply for my comfort. I want my dash to be a clean and safe place. Like many people around me, I suffer from anxiety. When my dash starts moving too fast, my brain goes into overdrive. I become discorganized and it often kills my muse.
The same can be said for unfollowing. I am someone who hates to break mutual follows, like I hate it. But if you're posting an excessive amount of negativity, things that make me uncomfortable, or I just do not see us writing in the future —— I'm sorry but I will unfollow you. I also unfollow blogs that have been inactive for a mnth without a hiatus notice. If I unfollow you while you've gone inactive, you are welcome ( & encouraged ) to message me when you return! I'll be more than happy to follow you back!
replies.
This blog runs off inspiration. As mentioned before, I suffer from anxiety. That tends to manifest itself in really long periods of self doubt. It’s not cute. And all that means for you is, replies tend to be slow. There are just some days I can’t get the word out the way I want them. Please, do not rush me. That’s just going to make me put your reply at the bottom of the pile or drop the thread entirely. But if I ever write you a reply you can’t work with, please tell me. I’ll rewrite it. And there will be absolutely no hard feelings.
I also tend to get very carried away when writing. I've been told I write a lot of nonsense and it rambles on. But for me, it helps me get into the head of my character. I like to paint a picture of what they're feeling and what it going on in their head. I will never expect you to match my length. As long as you match my enthusiasm, we're good!
plotting.
I am one of the worst plotters in the history. Which sucks because I love plotted things. I much prefer plotting to winging it. But let me explain. I have a lot of ideas on any given day, I am just terrified of expressing them. Because i don’t want you think I am misinterpreting your character. This is a problem I’ve had in the past where I was just trying to explain an idea I had, my partner would get mad at me because it wasn’t something her character would do ( or specifcally what she wanted to do ), and it ended up in the entire storyline being dropped. It was a mess. And honestly, it happened more than once so I’m a bit scarred from it. So if you’re willing to have a little bit of patience with me, I’m all for plotting, even loosely!
If you're looking to plot with me, please have some kind of idea when approaching me? I don't care if you hit me with just some random plot bunny post. I just don't work well when someone is like 'do you want to plot' and then hits me with 'well, do you have any ideas?'. Because 9 times out of ten, I just don't know where to go from there. Throw every plot you can think of / want at me and we can go from there!
relationships.
When I say I want all the relationships for Kate, I mean I want them all. I want friends, enemies, old bosses, new bosses, people she went to high school with, and people she steals from. I want everything under the sun. But know this, when it comes to romance, especially in any 'canon' verse for her -- it will not be a walk in the park. This girl is scarred. Kate has literally been to hell and back. Romannce is like.. the last thing on her mind? And honestly, it takes a while for me to ship with people I don't know. It's different if we're close OOC. But, it's going to take time. I need to make sure our writing meshes, Kate gets along with your character, and it's just.. it will be a slow process. I just ask for patience and a little understanding.
triggers & nsfw.
I have no triggers. I mean, I really don’t enjoy seeing clowns but I don’t expect people to tag it. Sometimes, I forget to tag them. Especially when I’m writing because it doesn’t occur to me that anyone other than my partner is going to be reading the reply. I’m human. If I miss one or you see something that triggers you, you are welcome to pop into my inbox and ask me to tag it. They will be tagged with the word followed by cw. for example: blood cw, violence cw, gore cw, etc.
Kate is a sexually curious being. She’s human. She has needs. She’s also of age. Which means, if she wants to have sex, or think about sex, or be horny.. I’m not going to stop her. So yes, there will be nsfw material on this blog. It will always be tagged. Any nsfw written on this blog will not be put under a read more. I just don’t like the look of it. But, it will still be tagged. I promise.
formatting.
Formatting is not important to me!! Do I prefer small text and icons / gif icons? Sure. But at the end of the day, you do what makes you comfortable. I happen to use small + sup text. However, I am aware that this can be difficult for some people to read. If you’re having a hard time, just tell me! I will happily use just small text. I never want someone to refrain from writing with me because my aesthetics are giving them a headache.
memes.
I have never been a big believer in reblog karma. You should send me a meme because you want to, not because it’s in my rules. I only ask that you don’t sit there & treat me like a meme archive. That makes me sad. Especially because.. I LOVE MEMES!! Some of the best threads I’ve ever had have started as memes. And from people I thought I would never get to interact with. If you think it might not make sense or you’re scared because we’ve never interacted, send them. I will only fall in love with you. And you want to continue it?? GO FOR IT. I only ask that you move it to a new thread.
passwords.
I do not send in passwords. I can’t stress this enough. I’m sorry. this does not mean I haven’t read your rules. It means.. I HAVE ANXIETY. And that might seem like a silly reason but you have no idea how much my heart drops when I’m reading someone’s rules and I see a password. Because even if they’re expecting that message, it takes me over an hour to send it in. I can’t explain it. So, if this is a deal breaker for you, I am so very sorry.
out of character
Lizz. 23. Female. EST. Smol bean. Skype available upon request. Welcome to my blog, xo.
verses
CANON.
AU.
CROSSOVERS.
SEASON TWO.
pretty straight forward. this verse will consist of anything and everything that takes place during season two of the show. i will type up a better explanation for what this verse entails soon. i promise.
SEASON THREE.
pretty straight forward. this verse will consist of anything and everything that takes place during season three of the show. i will type up a better explanation for what this verse entails soon. i promise.
TRES GECKOS ( post s3. )
this verse will consist of anything and everything that takes place after kate has begun robbing banks with the geckos. obviously this is going to be very much open to interpretation seeing as coto is a jerk and won't tell us how much time has passed. so i'm going to just wing it. oops.
W. SUAVEGECKO.
CLOSED VERSE. set in a universe where kate did not die at the blood well. and ended up staying with richie after. ( to be completely honest, the timeline of this verse is all over the place. it's just us being trash babies. enjoy, xo. )
W. GUAPOGECKO.
CLOSED VERSE. set in a universe where kate did not let seth walk away from her. ( also a verse that kind of just goes all over the place. it's follow a few different scenarios while they're in mexico, including a pregnancy au. oops. )
MAFIA AU.
CLOSED VERSE with guapogecko, suavegecko, & accicofist. kate is currently married to seth. and her entire backstory has been flipped. i will type up a better explanation for what this verse entails soon. i promise.
UNDETERMINED.
everything that i have no idea where it should be, is going to go here! until comes time that i actually add officially crossover verses -- they're probably going to fall into this catergory. but i swear, i'm working on adding crossover verses!
basic information
FULL NAME: Katherine 'Kate' Fuller. NICKNAME: Katarina. The Innocence. Katie Cakes. Preacher's Daughter. Little Lady. Little Miss Sunshine. Princess. AGE: 18 BIRTH DATE: --- ZODIAC SIGN: --- SPOKEN LANGUAGE: English. Spanish. SPECIES: Human. ( Former Goddess / Demon while possessed by Amaru ). GENDER: Female. PRONOUNS: She/her. SEXUAL ORIENTATION: Straight. RELIGION: Christian. LIVING CONDITIONS: Verse dependent. OCCUPATION: Criminal.
EYE COLOUR: Green HAIR COLOUR:Red HEIGHT: 5’3” TATTOOS + PIERCINGS: No tattoos. Both ears pierced. NOTABLE PHYSICAL TRAITS: A few small scars littered across her body. Nothing 'notable' though.
phobias and disorders
PHOBIAS: Abandoment. MENTAL DISORDERS: Night terrors. Insomnia. PTSD.
biography
One day, I will type up an actual bio for my smol. Until then. I leave you with the link to her wiki page. It's not the best source of information, so if you have any questions.. feel free to message me!
stand up, warrior. you are not yet finished. b e a t e n you may be, but broken? angels have fallen from greaterheights and s u r v i v e d. so why shouldn’t you?
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