richie. ❜

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              ❛  protecting you’s all i got, kate.    because he couldn’t GIVE her what she wanted  &  it felt like life was playing a cruel joke on him, echoing words of someone he vowed never to think about again looping in his mind.  he couldn’t love her, he couldn’t give her the attention, the CARING she deserved, but he could protect her.  &  that also included protecting her from all that he was, all the darkness that could swallow her whole  &  create someone that she wouldn’t recognize when she looked in the mirror.  he couldn’t do that——-  snuff out the only light, the only GOOD that his world had.   ❛  &  you  &  i both know you can’t promise something like that.    but he was willing to try  &  he hoped that if there was a next time, his reaction would be a lot less violent.  with his hand still in hers, he leaned forward, shifting so that he was knelt on the ground in front of her, SITTING back on his shin then brought up her hand to his lips for a small kiss.  ❛  real question’s where do we go from here?  i hurt you..  &  i didn’t mean to  &  it would only be fair if you hurt me back.  i’d give you full permission to punch me, but that MIGHT hurt you even more.  ❜

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             ❝   why   not ?   ❞   the  question  rolled  off  her  tongue ,   spilling  into  the  air  with  a  force  that  nearly  cracked  the  moment  between  them.  her  tone  was  laced  with  hints  of  how   OFFENDED   she  felt.  it  displayed  the  cracks  in  her  heart  and  she  could  only  pray ;   don’t  let  him  see  those.  the  last  thing  she  wanted  was  to  put  more  weight  onto  his  shoulders.  he  already  carried  so  much ;   more  than  (  she  thought  )  he  even  realized.   ❝   i   can   promise   it ,   a-and   i   just   did.   i’m   not   sayin’   i’ll   stop   feeling   that   way.   o-or   thinkin’   it.   but…   i   won’t   say   it.   ❞   and  when  his  lips  brushed  against  her  skin ,   she  felt  a  tremble   RETURN   to  her  bones.  he  was  gentle.  so  gentle   &   such  a  harsh  contrast  to  how  they  had  been  only  minutes  prior.  her  fingers  twisted  within  his  grasp ,   moving  slowly  and  treating  him  in  the  same  gentle  manner.  they  grazed  across  his  jawline ,   while  her  gaze  locked  onto  his.  her  head  shook  as  his  words  continued ,   freeing  a  few  more  tears.  but  she  hardly  payed  them  any  mind.   ❝   n-no.   richie ,   i   don’t   wanna   hurt   you.   I   COULD   NEVER   DO   THAT.   ——   d-do   you   still   want   me   to   leave ?   ❞   

 

well that girl


stand      up,     warrior.
you are not yet finished.
b e a t e n you may be, but broken? angels  have  fallen  from greater     heights      and
s  u r v i v  e  d.
so why  shouldn’t  you  ?

is long gone.


independent & highly selective kate fuller.

EST: SEPT. 9, 2016.
as told by lizz.