richie. ❜

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                it felt as if he were TORN in two  &  yet it wasn’t unfamiliar.  ever since he was a little kid walking around with no real idea of what the world was really like, he’d always felt like he was on the wrong side of the coin; like there was something holding him back, pushing him away.  &  it was no different when it came to kate.  on one end, he WANTED to open up to her, wanted to be able to tell her everything he felt for her, everything he felt in general, but on the other end, he was terrified of her seeing him for the monster he really was.  &  how could she KNOW she wouldn’t see him in that way?  her eyes have seen so much hurt  &  pain, but they’d never seen so much blood on a person’s hand who hid it so well.  his fingers stretched out towards hers, buds resting on top of quivering knuckles as wet blue eyes dared peak up at hers  &  he wanted nothing more than to kiss the pain that crawled up her throat away.  ❛  you don’t know me, kate you THINK you do, but you don’t—–   &  i don’t want you to get to know that other side of me.  you’ve seen enough..    his eyes dropped back down to their hands, his index inching to trace the skin on her wrist.  ❛  it’s not something i’m USED to hearing..  truth be told, it scares me.  more than i’ll admit.  

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             palms  stayed   OPEN ;   facing  the  heavens  though  her  eyes  rolled  to  a  close  so  she  could  fully  lose  herself  in  the  feeling  of  his  fingertips.  the  way  they  caressed  her  skin ,   when  she  had  been  so  sure  he’d  never  touch  her  again.  inch  by  inch  her  worries  settled.  the  waves  of  anxiety  crashing  into  her  slowed  to  a  much  more  steady  and  manageable  rhythm.  he  was  there.  for  that  moment ,   he  wasn’t  walking  away  from  her.  and  when  green  eyes  did  blink  open ,   seeing  their  blue  counterparts  glossed  over  with  tears  that   MATCHED   hers  ——  a  sigh  worked  through  her  lips.   ❝   richie.   y-you…   you   gotta   stop   tryin’   to   protect   me.   i-i   can   make   my   own   decisions.   and…   if   i   say   i   wanna   get   to   know   this   other   side   of   you ,   that’s   my   choice.   it’s   still   up   to   you   if   you   wanna   share   it   but..   don’t   hide   yourself   because   i’ve   seen   enough.   ❞   any  other  day  and  they  would  have  been   FIGHTING.   this  would  have  been  a  full  blown  argument.  the  both  of  them  on  their  feet  and  tossing  words  around  with   VENOMOUS   intent.  to  see  them  now ,   speaking  in  such  hushed  tones…  it  fueled  her  hope.   ❝   a-and   i   should   have   known   that.   i   won’t   say   it   again ,   okay ?   i   promise.   ❞   

 

well that girl


stand      up,     warrior.
you are not yet finished.
b e a t e n you may be, but broken? angels  have  fallen  from greater     heights      and
s  u r v i v  e  d.
so why  shouldn’t  you  ?

is long gone.


independent & highly selective kate fuller.

EST: SEPT. 9, 2016.
as told by lizz.