richie. ❜

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              no..   he whispered, the short word MUFFLED against his palms as finger pressed tightly against his eyes, wishing he could feel the pain as he dug deeper  &  deeper.  he needed to feel something else than the REAL raw emotion that swirled within him  &  yet it seemed to be the only thing plaguing his mind  &  he knew that it wouldn’t stop unless she was far away from him.  but kate’s proven that she wouldn’t leave him; no matter how many times he yelled, how many times he PUSHED her, she wouldn’t leave.  but there was always going to be that fear in the back of his mind that one day he’ll wake up  &  she’ll be nothing bit a distant memory.   no, it’s not me, but do you really think the guy behind the mask is so much better, kate?  sometimes, i don’t even know who i am, EXCEPT for when i’m with you because that’s when i feel the most..  alive.  the most human  &  part of me hates it.  part of me hates you.  ❜  he finally dropped his hands to look up at her, dropping his head back against the edge of the table.   why CAN’T i hate you.. ?  

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             BECAUSE  YOU  LOVE  ME  TOO.   and  god ,   how  she  wanted  to  scream  that  in  his  face.  for  that  split  second  she  wanted  to  force  him  to  confront  the  feeling  he’d  been  pushing  away.  but  she  had  never  been  that  kind  of  selfish.  it  wasn’t  in  her.  and  she’d  already  crossed  enough  lines  for  the  night.  the  rest  of  their  time  together  would  be  spent…  walking  on  eggshells.  tip  toeing  around  because  she  couldn’t..  she  wouldn’t  let  this  be  the  end.   ❝   be-because   that’s   not   who   you   are.   ❞   another  step  was  taken  towards  him.  knees  trembled ,   and  when  she  lowered  herself  down  to  his  eye  level  —  it  was  done  ever  so  carefully.  the  kind  of  practiced  manner  that  if  she  didn’t  focus ,   she’d  end  up  collapsing  at  his  feet.  and  when  her  hands  reached  forward ,   fingers  yearning  to  brush  again  his ,   she  was  very  much  aware  of  how  badly  she  was  shaking.   ❝   a-and   i…   i   don’t   want   you   to   hate   me ,   richie.   i’m   sorry.   i-i..   i   shouldn’t   have   said   anything.   ❞  

 

well that girl


stand      up,     warrior.
you are not yet finished.
b e a t e n you may be, but broken? angels  have  fallen  from greater     heights      and
s  u r v i v  e  d.
so why  shouldn’t  you  ?

is long gone.


independent & highly selective kate fuller.

EST: SEPT. 9, 2016.
as told by lizz.